deep breaths

lately i find myself consumed by this overwhelming rage. the kind that takes over your entire body, running through your veins, making your hands twitch in ways that resemble a fist. the kind that makes you explode with a holler so loud it takes all the air in your lungs and rushes to your head, making you sigh deeply and have to sit down from the dizziness and sheer exhaustion of caring any longer. the type of breath so deep that it suddenly releases emotions in the form of salt water droplets streaming down your neck and leaving you with a wet collar. i'm tired. i am tired and i am angry. I am sick of watching myself act in a way that I promised myself I never would. I always told myself that even though I grew up in an angry house, I would never reduce myself to that. now i'm breaking my own promises.