let me go.

i begged. i begged you to let me go. i had to beg for you to finally tell me to fuck off. even as you refused i was persistent, i needed you to let me go. it broke me inside that i had to convince you to not let me in when i came running back, because i knew i would. but i think it broke me a little more when you finally gave in and agreed. loving you was never the issue, that was easy, it came naturally. it flooded from my fingertips to my toes, my love for you coursed through every vein in my body. but the issue was me, i wasn't easy to love. i made it so difficult for you. i refused to show any form of emotions because i believed it made me weak. i pushed you away and never showed you i cared because even though i would never admit it out loud, i was terrified. eventually i came to the realisation that you didn't want me and it was all made up in my head, every moment we had together. i made myself resent you for straying me along when you had no further intentions. so i forced myself to leave, because i thought it would be easier hating you from afar than loving you up close. but please, i need you to let go of your hold on me now. because as long as you pull on those little heart strings of mine, i think i will always find my way back to you.