its not enough

as children we were always told "you're doing your best, and that's all anyone can ask from you, that's enough", but is it? now as a seventeen year old, the whole world seems to be asking for so much more. everyone wants more than i have to give. whether it seems to be friends who need constant support but never reciprocate, or teachers who pile up deadlines after deadlines without questioning help, or the boy you haven't spoken to in 2 months saving your pictures to his camera roll at 3am. no matter what i do or how hard i try, nothing seems to be enough. everywhere i turn, i'm letting everyone down. and i wish to god i could say it’s because i don't care enough to try harder, but that would be a lie. it kills me inside knowing that i’m doing everything i possibly can, i’m trying my very hardest i swear to you. but it’s just not enough. and watching the pain and despair in your own parents eyes as they look at you is probably one of the most gut wrenching feelings. all i ever wanted was to make them proud. but i will never live up to the expectations they had for me. the pressure is too much. it’s slowly killing me and i don't know how much longer i can last this pain.