tired

i’m tired. not sleepy tired. but the kind that you feel in your bones. the heavy kind that weighs you down. the kind that puts your whole life on pause because you have no energy or motivation to bother getting up. so when i say i’m tired, it doesn't mean i can't sleep, it means i can't think. it’s a feeling that never truly goes away. it seeps into your brain and lives there forever. it’s terminal. so yes, i’m tired.