healing era

I've realised something lately, I am a blip. in this universe of millions of billions of trillions of infinite years to come, I am only here for a minuscule fraction of it. I am merely a spec of dust upon dust and so on. the consequences of my decisions will have no meaning once I am gone. so why waste that time? I have realised that I am tired of just existing, I want to live. I want to see everything in this world, try everything, feel everything. the good and the bad. so I no longer hide my emotions, I no longer hide the fact that I care too much or that i'm interested in someone, because I think it is an incredibly beautiful thing to even have the capacity to feel those things. I am not ashamed of showing you how much more I care than you. and if that makes some people uncomfortable then so be it, but I will no longer hide it just because i'm afraid of being "too much" or of it being a "turn off" for some people. I care. I love unconditionally and unforgivably. I hurt. and I feel to extremes. that is no longer something I will hide or apologise for. and someday I will find someone who loves me exactly for this reason. so I guess I'm calling this part, my healing era.