off the rails

if i’m being completely and utterly honest... i’m scared i’m not going anywhere. and that would be fine if i knew i wasn't completely alone in it. but i am. everyone's moving on with their lives and i’m still stuck in this same repeating loop. i have this nightmare, it always goes the same. i’m all alone, on a moving train. and the rails just cut off somewhere along the track ahead. but it’s going so fast and the brakes are stuck so i can't slow down or even stop for a minute to think. the doors are locked so i can't jump off. there's no way out. so when it goes flying off the rails, i guess i just have to wait and see where i land. but i’m scared. there's no one to hold my hand or tell me it’s going to be ok. so i’m just gripping on for dear life, in the hopes it doesn't kill me.