growing pains

dear me, 

this is your reminder for when things get tough. it’s ok to be sad. let yourself feel the hurt. i know it seems impossible right now, but you have to open those flood gates and let the pain consume you. every inch of you. until you feel as though you can't breath. until you feel this crushing weight collapsing in on your lungs. because that’s the only way it will get easier, you'll learn to cope with it. there's bound to be growing pains, as you stretch, but lean into it, work the muscles and strengthen them. because if you don't allow this process, it’s going to stay there, in the deepest pits of your soul, slowly eating away at any humanity you had left, until you're left completely empty and hollow, wishing for the pain rather than nothing at all. so it’s ok to feel the hurt, let yourself bask in the pain, however long it may be. just remember to get back up when it’s all over.